WHO IS
world of esensi?

A home for icons, main characters, it girls, lovergirls, and heartleaders, women who stopped surviving their lives and started falling in love with them instead. We build books, brands, and businesses rooted in one thing: coming home to who you already are.

The Values // The Values

The Values // The Values

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The Philosophy // The Philosophy

The Philosophy // The Philosophy

Loyalty · Freedom · Love ·
Faith · Connection · Adventure


The philosophy

As a woman rooted in God, I build everything from stillness first, strategy second. Everything I create, the books, the brand work, the retreats, starts the same way: quality over quantity, intention over hustle, God as the foundation instead of an afterthought. Nothing here is built to perform. It's built to last. It’s built to serve.

THE STORY

World of Esensi started as one woman looking for her way back, not a business plan. Somewhere between a New Age season that promised everything and delivered noise, and a Good Friday that changed everything, ESENSI was born as a return, not a reinvention. What started as one book became a method. What started as a method became a home for other women finding their way back too.

YOU WERE NEVER meant TO “SURVIVE YOUR LIFE . YOU WERE MEANT TO fall in love WITH IT.

Before there was a role to step into,
someone had to write it first.
This is where it started.

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learn from 
my story
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FOUNDER, VISIONARY AND CREATIVE DIRECTOR.

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THE HEART, FAITH, AND HUSTLE
BEHIND WORLD OF ESENSI

Meet Mery

I won't tell you I always knew who I was. I'll tell you the truth.

I grew up between worlds: Dutch precision and Indonesian soul, with Sumatran and Moluccan roots running through everything I am. For as long as I can remember, I carried the feeling of being "too much" for the rooms I was in, yet somehow never enough for the ones I wanted to enter. Not quite one thing. Not quite the other. Always translating myself for someone.

So I searched. Deeply. Sincerely. 
Everywhere I thought I might find the answer.

Spirituality. New Age. Ceremonies. Self-development. Every framework that promised to fill what I can only describe as a God-sized space inside me. I read the books. I did the work. I've spend €75.000 on this transformation. I sat in the circles and said the words I was told would set me free. I've manifested everything that I wanted at one point and I still felt empty. 

Unfulfilled.

And for a moment, each one felt like it might be it. Then the moment passed, the way they always do. I went far. I went deep. And somehow, I always came back emptier than before, carrying one more language for a hunger that never actually got fed.

I didn't know I was looking for a person. I thought I was looking for a practice.

Then, on Good Friday, at 33, 
I walked into an empty church in Bali.

I didn't go looking for anything that day. I wasn't chasing a breakthrough. I just walked in, the way you walk into a room without knowing it's about to change your life.

I didn't find another philosophy. I came home.












The emptiness I'd carried for decades disappeared in a way I still don't have the language to fully explain. Not because I had finally figured life out. I hadn't. Nothing about my circumstances changed that day. But because I had finally stopped running from the One who had been calling me home all along, long before I ever knew to call it that.  

Every path I'd wandered down, every framework I'd outgrown, every version of "almost" I'd settled for, it all led back to that one empty church, that one Friday, that one moment I stopped moving long enough to be found.

Everything inside World of Esensi is built on thát moment. Not a strategy. Not a method. Not a personal brand. A life surrendered to God.

These days you'll usually find me surfing before sunrise or in a reformer Pilates class before opening my laptop. Ordinary mornings, built on top of the most unordinary thing that ever happened to me. I write books that ask the questions most people are afraid to put on paper, the ones we whisper at 2am and never say out loud in daylight.  

I'm building ESENSI, rooted in a new fundament and girlhood dreams, mentoring heart-led women who are further along the same road I once walked, and creating a world for those who are done almost becoming themselves.

I'm an author. A founder. A mentor. But before any of that, before any title I've earned or built, I'm simply a woman who finally came home. Everything I build flows from there, every single time, no exceptions. LOVERGIRL was the first page of that story, written down before I ever called it a book, before I knew it would become anything at all.

My hope isn't that you become more like me. I don't need another version of myself walking around. My hope is that somewhere along the way, you remember who God created you to be, underneath everything you've picked up trying to survive, and begin building a life that actually reflects her.

It doesn't matter where you are on your path. You might still be wrapped in darkness in new age, spirituality, or multidimensionality, doing exactly what I did for years also. You might be a lukewarm Christian finding your way back, closer than you think. Or you might be a female entrepreneur who wants to lead with her heart and her purpose, tired of building things that don't feel like her.

Wherever you are, the door is open and you are welcome. Know that you are loved by the Most High. Not eventually. Not once you've figured it out. 

Right now, exactly as you are. So I expect you to show up exactly as you are.

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Vrouw met een bloem in haar haar, lachend met gesloten ogen, in een kleurrijke, stralende outfit met een parelketting, op een tropische locatie met groen en een rieten dak.

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The vision

We believe the most beautiful lives aren't built by women chasing more. They're built by women who remember who they already are. Rooted in where they're going, not just running from where they've been. Women who build businesses with heart, not hustle. Who raise children who already know who they are, because their mother stopped pretending first. Who travel light, because they've stopped carrying what was never theirs to carry. This isn't a movement built on more. It's a homecoming built on remembering. A world built on women whose lives speak louder than their words ever could. The kind of women the world quietly changes through not because they tried to change it, but because they finally came home to themselves first.

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already living
the life

ICON PACKAGES

Not every rehearsal happens on the same timeline. Whether you're still finding your footing as a You, softening into your Lovergirl, deepening as a Muse, or already living in your Icon era, there's a way to get coached through exactly where you are, from a few weeks of steady support in your pocket, to a full identity shift held close, to a season where the whole role finally clicks into place. However long it takes you to stop rehearsing and start living it, there's a package built for that exact chapter.

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